Why I left Islam

My father has been a devout Muslim his whole life. I used to mimic my father’s prayer routine and ask him to take me to the mosque with him for the Jumma prayer when I was a child. I sometimes used to sing the Islamic call to prayer, known as Adhan. When my parents discovered that I had a keen interest in Islamic practices, they believed that I would grow up to be a famous Islamic scholar, and they were proud of my religiosity. But now I’m an adult and an atheist. This turn of events, I believe, was beyond their wildest dreams. In my adolescence, I began to have doubts about Islam. I had many questions about Islam, other faiths, and God’s concept that I couldn’t find adequate answers too. I wondered if I was the only one in the world who thought this way. When I was around 16, I came across an essay about Allah’s scientific analysis in a newspaper owned by a passenger seated beside me on a bus. The author of the article analyzed how Allah, as an observer, views us. He reasoned that as Allah knows what will happen in the future, our lives are like a movie to him. For us, It’s like we’re watching a movie that we’ve already seen. There were more ideas in the essay from a logical standpoint, but I couldn’t finish reading them. I was ecstatic to realize that I was not alone in my thoughts. Another individual attempted to think critically and objectively as well. Afterwards, I went to several newspaper shops for several days in the hopes of purchasing the same newspaper containing the essay so that I could finish reading it. However, I could not find it. Later in life, a variety of life experiences and reflections lead me to doubt Islam. Now I will discuss some of the main reasons I left Islam.

According to Islam, Allah is omnipotent and omniscient. So Allah knows the past and the future. Say, Allah knows it is going to rain tomorrow. If he wills now, he will not be able to prevent rain from occurring tomorrow. If he, by his might, renders tomorrow rainless, what he formerly knew would be wrong. As a result, he will no longer be omniscient. And if he tries to maintain his omniscience, he can’t exercise his free will at all. As a result, Allah cannot be both omnipotent and omniscient at the same time. I once asked my father as a child, “If nothing happens without Allah’s command, should anyone be held responsible for their actions?” He replied, “Allah knows better. We should not dwell on Allah’s characterization because Muhammad discouraged us from doing so.”. This response left me unsatisfied. Later, I asked several devout Muslims the question, and none of their answers was satisfactory to me.

Similarly, I found a problem with a claim about Shab-e-Barat, which Muslims observe all across the world. It is on the 14th night of the eighth month in the Islamic calendar. It is believed that on this night, Allah forgives anyone who asks for it and also decides people’s fortune for the year ahead. Seeking forgiveness and doing religious rituals are both parts of the future. It means our whole life is predetermined. As a result, the belief that Allah judges an individual’s good deeds and sins on the Day of Judgement and punishes those whose sins outweigh their good deeds is nothing more than a drama by Allah.

Since I was a kid, I’ve been a science fan, and I’ve read about famous scientists, the majority of whom were non-Muslims. They will go to Hell and burn there forever, according to Islam, since they do not believe in Islam. It wasn’t straightforward for me to justify. What is the fault of non-Muslims that they go to Hell after death? I wondered. The majority of people adhere to their parent’s faith. Only a tiny percentage of the population chooses their religion knowingly. Non-muslims could be Muslims if they were born into Muslim families and vice versa. Consequently, their punishment or rewards are decided by random chance, which should not be the case.

I found numerous Islamic beliefs conflict with science. For example, The story of Adam and Eve conflicts with the theory of evolution. According to Islamic texts, One wing of a housefly has the disease, and the other wing has the antidote that is nonsense. The Islamic claim that the earth is flat and the sun revolves around the planet also not supported by science.

The claim that Muhammad travelled through space on the Burqa, a horse-like animal with wings, cannot be valid because space has no air/oxygen. Both the Quran and hadith refer to witchcraft and the evil eye and supernatural beings known in Arabic as jinn. Talismans have power, and actual magic exists, according to Islam. However, there is no evidence for the existence of these supernatural phenomena.
I used to enjoy music, which is forbidden in Islam. I often saw in magazines and on TV that non-Muslims in the West had more independence and fun. I wonder what harm these enjoyable activities do to oneself and others. I couldn’t find any. Why does Allah prohibit these people’s actions if they don’t hurt others? “I am unfortunate to be born into a Muslim family,” I thought back when I still believed in Islam. I thought, “If I had been born in the West as a non-Muslim, I would have been able to enjoy life more. When I’m old enough, I’ll be able to convert to Islam and pray to Allah for forgiveness. As a result, I would be able to enjoy more of the world and, as a Muslim, I would be able to go to Heaven after death.”. I was still scared of death at the time because I wasn’t practising Islam correctly, and I thought I’d go to Hell if I died before getting a chance to properly practise Islam for some time and earn Allah’s forgiveness. Islamic countries are typically impoverished and corrupt. If Allah is satisfied by Islamic prayer, Muslim-majority countries are expected to be more prosperous and developed. However, this is not the case.
I was once reading my father’s favourite book of Qur’anic tafsir. (A Qur’anic tafsir attempts to explain, interpret, context, or commentary for a clear understanding of the Quran). It is written that a slave escaping from his owner is a great sin, and Allah will not accept the slave’s prayer until he returns to his master. I asked my father about how someone could become a slave. I told him that people used to be slaves if they were prisoners of war, kidnapped and then sold to another or born to a slave father. So if a slave is not responsible for his slavery and is being kept against his will, shouldn’t it be a good thing for him to escape? Why does Allah get enraged by his desire to be free? My father was unable to respond, and I could see his frustration. I haven’t got a reasonable answer to the question.

When I studied Mohammad’s life, I found a good person can do a disturbing story that I could not rationalize. Muslims under the direct military command of Muhammad laid siege to the Banu Qurayza compound. After a blockade of around two weeks, the Jews of Banu Qurayza surrendered. Muhammad, in a bloodbath, beheaded some 800 men and boys from the Qurayza tribe while their children and women were taken as slaves. These penalties are in no way justifiable.

A man can have sex with his slave woman without her permission, according to Islam. It is very wrong. If a woman is raped, she requires four witnesses to prosecute the perpetrator in a court of law in Islam. She might even get punished herself if she can not produce four witnesses. She wouldn’t get justice. Muhammad married Aisha when she was six years old, and he consummated the marriage when she was nine years old. That is highly objectionable. Considering that many poor children die of terrible diseases and are tormented in agony and inhumane suffering in the Islamic Hell, it can make a reasonable person doubt the merciful concept, caring for Allah.
Some people argue that if there is no God, both the atheist and the believer will be liberated. But if God exists, the believer will be freed, and the atheist will be punished after death. This argument has persuaded many people. The description of suffering in the Islamic Hell is beyond imagination. So who would not try to avoid it? I have also thought about this and conclude that I do not need to be afraid here. There are 4200 religions. A believer is considered an unbeliever by the followers of the other 4199 religions. If it turns out in the hereafter that God exists, then, if he is a just God, he will not love the one less who, as an atheist, did not give in to greed but did good deeds of his own will instead of doing good to avoid punishment and out of a desire for heavenly rewards. So there is no rational argument for atheists to fear if their belief in God’s existence turns out to be false.
Apostasy and blasphemy are punishable by death in Islam. A logically sound and just faith does not need to compel others to believe in it. As a logical person, I found it is impossible to believe in Islam as any evidence does not support it, contradicts logic, and has many harmful aspects. And this is why I left Islam.

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